Wow  ! A roller coaster of emotions for you! It must be...

[Altogether]

"Survival mode". That's a good way to put it. 

I'm not terribly good at self care, never have been. But I am trying to get back to walking the puppy because that does make me feel good and gets me away from things, even for just, 20 or 30 min.

I'm thinking about going to see my close friend on the weekend. It's just hard at the moment because I'm not keen on leaving my son here on his own, without at least having him up and having started his day. 

If he manages to get going early enough tomorrow, I'm going to go see my mum too.

I'm rather tragic aren't I? All I have as a regular thing is getting out with my puppy once or twice a day!!  

[Appleblossom]

Sounds like you are an enormously hard-working and capable woman. 

Maybe we think others have fancier lives but its the little things like working the dog that help .. I just love other people's dogs cos I cant have one.

If you are the rock .. its especially important you work with self care.  A blended family adds complication, I found the stepfamily association helpful when I was still trying to keep my original family together .. before I realised I was actually a stepparent .. but thats a long story.

keep doing the next logical thing.

I have met lots of grown up and functioning kids of divorced parents.  We can only do what we can do ... I understand your concerns about his meds and hope suitable meds are prescribed ... but for the moment  .. walk that dog .. I will be taking up walking and a few blisters at minute cos I became a softie.

[Altogether]

Thanks @Appleblossom. We just do our best don't we? 

I have a great stepfamily group I belong to that have been my saving grace through all the crap that comes with doing what we do. I'm glad you found some help in that regard too. It's such a minefield that we find ourselves in and one that is eyeopening and hard to comprehend at times! 

Was just thinking of my love of music too.  I unexpectedly had the house to myself last night so had my playlist blasting. The puppy and I enjoyed our time out. So I guess that's something too.

[MIFANTCARER]

WOW, amazing job so far, booking Psychologist appts, working as a family, creating agreements and trying to quit smoking, WOW WOW!!! The information below regrading suicide will be helpful, Headspace or Orygen which ever is in your area will be great from a free services support network, suicide call back services 1300 659 467 is a number you can call if you need information or support for your area. Doing well keep moving forward.

[Appleblossom]

Its really weird i cant get over how many typos I make when posting .. walking not working the dog .. huh

Just keep reaching out.