rough time

[Nay69]

I just wanted to make sure you were okay :ok_hand: @outlander
You have always been there for me💐

[Appleblossom]

Dear @outlander

You sound upset. 

I have been seeing you post around. It makes me happy that you have lots of friends on the forum.  I was surprised and will miss @Faith-and-Hope while she is away.

I am not going anywhere, just doing music, housework and watching The Handmaids Tale.  I stopped it a year ago, but as it is going to used in a project, it is best to watch some more. I  have found it important to keep the laptop away from my body when I watch.

What have been your latest shows?

I may not be as frequent online as I was. Sorry,

Lots of hugz.

[outlander]

Thanks @Nay69 @Appleblossom ❤
Its just one of my meltdown nights i guess. Im missing people and missing having conversations here without feeling like my posts are empty. My offline realm seems to be getting harder to manage and it feels like everything good gets stripped away. Everything is hitting hard. 😞


Apple- im glad your not leaving and @Nay69  Your another i would miss so much and the forums missing F&H soon will be tricky too cause she such a lovely presence here. Its ok you dont have to be online all the time but i do like seeing your avatar pop up when possible. I have been floating around abit posting here and there but even that lately just feels empty and bothersome (thats definitely not because of anyone here, its just my emotions latley.
I have watched all the handmaid tale and its very full on so had to limit my watching too. I havent been watching much have been abit busy and doing my spring cleaning but when i do latley its xmas or Disney type movies.

[Nay69]

@outlander

Just happy know that you are okay :ok_hand: beautiful friend

always here for you ❤️

[Sans911]

My Lil Sis @outlander

I'm struggling to be here at the moment and have been for some weeks for much the same reasons as you. But it's more than people leaving or missing; there's something missing from the forums too.

I know you, Snowie, and Zoe are going through trying times right now, and my stuff doesn't feel important in the scheme of things. Please don't respond to that as I know what the answer is. It's just I have pretty the same miserable shite life every day. Round & round it goes but nothing really changes except the level of misery I feel, and how fed up I am. I can sit with that.

It's hard to be here to support members because they're often missing from the forum or not willing to engage, and that is their choice. So I don't feel very helpful anywhere, and have selfishly retreated into myself for a while.

I don't know what to do or how to change things so I wait until others are ready to talk. I'm sorry lil Sis. I'm not much use right now am I?

[Nay69]

Hi @Sans911

You sound upset 💕
Is there anything I can do?
I hate seeing people in pain

[Nay69]

@outlander

I will be there always my friend x

[Sans911]

Hi @Nay69
I'm just in a funk. I'm upset some of my favourite people are struggling so much, and I feel hopeless to help them. Which makes me feel hopeless at helping others.

[Nay69]

@Sans911

You just helped me by simply replying hun x
💐
I thank god for people like you

[outlander]

Thank you @Nay69 ❤

Oh my dear sis. Your post is very similar to my thoughts too. Something is missing but i dont know what perhaps it is the lack of engagement like before. I'm really missing our convos we have. I dont always want to talk about the harder stuff because like you it feels that same shite different day and i dont know what to do about it either. There isn't alot i can do except try to sit or work with it but you always help, please dont ever think otherwise. But i loved our convos about favourite books or pets or our travels or working on dbt stuff -just the general things.
I wish life wasnt so damn hard so our brains would allows those things to flow properly or find some sort of enjoyment so that we dont just have that same shite different day thing. @Sans911