Also, @TAB I think it is perfectly acceptable to stay in your house if that is what your body is telling you want to do.
I also agree with @oceangirl advice, & I appreciate reading it for myself. Thankyou. Tiny steps are what eventually evolves into change.
Please don't be hard on yourself, & say, 'no wonder I feel like this ' it is not your fault. You need to be proud of yourself for listening to your body & practising self care. Anyway, that is what I think. Like, "Awesome job, you doing you"
Life can be beyond...!!!
And, I know why RSL asked you to volunteer, because you are so good at caring for people. It is huge compliment.
I don't want to care for anyone either at the moment. I can barely do my cats. Food is low, litters unchanged.
It is good to have goals though, even if they are never achieved.
Often, life takes us on an alternative path.
I wanted to watch movie called LAMB last night. It started at midnight & I feel asleep. You give me idea I can watch on iPad ....
Maybe...
It is old & needs to be updated. I can't download apps. I wonder if sbs demand can be accessed through browser?
(I am unable to update because it needs to be plugged into PC with iTunes - I don't have that)
I noticed they need volunteers for massaging elderly people, hand massage etc.
I think that this sounds good. I will like to do it. I didn't make any steps yet.
Oh - I have been drinking coffee everyday for weeks. I am not happy about it. It is the anxiety & depression. I have 3 cups per day of cat whiskers coffee. I don't like where this is heading, or, I am already there?
I don't have much else to lose anymore.
I totally understand, not wanting to be around people & all of that annoying STUFF!!! What is it? It takes my energy. I didn't open door to PSW. I said sorry. She was very kind & kept asking if she can do anything. I replied NO . It sucked, because she is one of the ones I actually almost like.
