The Weekly Friday Feast

[Former-Member]

@Shimmer glad you like layered pasta cake- it's one of my faves too.
Yes, I guess I spend a lot of time on them. I just feel like such a failure- why do I keep getting sick and my friends don't? What's wrong with me as a person? I guess it just makes me feel worse.
I just wish someone would say it's going to get better and it's not my fault.

[Shimmer]

Ruminating on such thoughts often makes people feel worse @Former-Member - that doesn't mean it's easy to get out of the pattern, but gently trying to challenge those thoughts is a good thing to work towards.

It's not your fault. You're doing all the right things to help yourself get better. I hope you recognise that.

[Former-Member]

Thank you @Former-Member... hugs - end of term social thing sounds tiring - I find parties so tiring I have to completely avoid them these days - I avoided my planned somewhat social thing tonight - xmas gratitude yoga - couldn't face the world - feels too harsh - I don't know if I'll ever be well enough to have a career helping people - I would love to be a psychologist or even social worker if it is less stress, but I seem to have so much trouble communicating with people - On days like this I think it is impossible... I have thought of teaching as an option over the years - I think I would only like to be an art teacher, but since I think my art is hopeless despite getting straight As in high school - that doesn't seem possible... go curl up somewhere - I have two novels + a health book to read, but I can't concentrate to read at the moment due to paranoia swirling around my brain.... 

Might watch movie soon...

Hugs,

Ahimsa - Namaste,

Anna

[Shimmer]

Hi @Former-Member,

Congratulations on finishing up the year! Sounds like you did well with the social goodbye too. No wonder you are feeling quite low on energy now! Lucky you have the holidays ahead to recharge.

[Former-Member]

But what's wrong with me in the first place? What did I do wrong? What happens if I'm not even human- I'm just scum pretending to be a person.

[Shaz51]

Hello @Former-Member, hope you can have a good night sleep my friend xx

Hugs @aButterfly that's Just awful..... Hugs xx

I am still getting over yesterday with the specialist xx

Hubby is feeling very anxious tonight , he has taken his meds , but thinkng of taking a sleeping tablet too  and he has had 2 beers

[Former-Member]

@Former-Member - I have similar thoughts - I don't really know what to say to you, but I understand - It is not your fault & I think some people just get dealt unlucky cards with lots of trauma that leads to chronic mental ill health.... I don't know if it will get better, because I don't know if it will get better for me either - I do know there will be better days, weeks, months.... I hope that makes sense - sorry if it doesn't...

Yay for a long holiday for you @Former-Member 

Ahimsa - Namaste,

Anna

[Shimmer]

Wow those are very self-critical thoughts @Former-Member. I don't think anyone else would say such things about you. Isn't it sad how sometimes we can be our own harshest critic.

Personally, I believe self-compassion is so crucial. How could you introduce some of that to interrupt this pattern of thinking @Former-Member?

[jobe]

I had pasta!

[Former-Member]

I don't know. I don't think I deserve to be alive. I don't know what to do.