My Mosaic

[Bow]

Hi @Snowie 

dont think my CM appreciated the SW interrupting her visit. We really didn’t get to talk about much. 

you know a few weeks ago my psych asked if I had bought any particular items and I hesitantly said yes. I expected people on my door that afternoon but nothing. 
My CM asked me the same today and of course I said no. Urgh I don’t know. 

I just don’t care anymore I really don’t 

[Snowie]

It's a shame that they don't communicate better within themselves @Bow 

Makes it really hard for you too.

I can understand saying no. Said it myself this morning at ECT.

I also know how hard it is in the first place to say 'yes', to tell them exactly what is on our minds. And then for that just to get swept aside makes it enough harder and extremely frustrating.

[Bow]

Yeah @Snowie  maybe it’s her pregnant baby brain? In that case what else is she forgetting? Cause that wasn’t the only thing that she should have followed up on. 
but yeah having it ignored and swept aside again and again.,. Why be honest anymore? But then they growl when I do things

Oh well

i know you understand well hon and I’m sorry that you had to say no. 

[Snowie]

It must at times feel like a lose-lose situation for you @Bow 

If you say yes, they don't really do anything, but if you say no they get upset when you do something.

It's not as if saying yes is easy. It takes a lot of strength and courage to do so. Especially if our brain is telling us no. And it's more than just mental too. It effects us physically as well. I really don't think some people understand that.

[Bow]

Can’t do anything right so why even bother trying they probably just waiting one less on their books

[Ru-bee]

Hey @Bow hearing the frustration with your supports, and I hear that you're at a bit of a loss for what to do right now to get a different outcome from them. 

These feelings of frustration are so valid, but if there's anything I can do to support you through them I'm here

[Bow]

Thanks @Ru-bee  just gonna try go to sleep don’t wanna be awake anymore today

thank you

[Ru-bee]

I'm going to be heading to bed soon as well @Bow I hope you get a good rest and wake up feeling a little better 💜

[Bow]

Well I caught the gastro bug that my daughter ever so kindly bought home from school and shared. She’s off with her father today and I’m just laying in bed. At least I don’t need an excuse todo that today. But I did have plans. Just in case anyone reads or cares. 

[Bow]

Anyone around?