My Mosaic

[Bow]

Thanks @Snowie read your good news, hoping everything goes smoothly for you and your mums move. 

ive had a rough day. Couldn’t get myself to my psychologist appointment this morning so I’m sure I’ll be in trouble now. CM is supposed to be doing a home visit tomorrow morning so I’m sure I’ll hear about it then… that’s if she cares enough to show up. I’ve woken with headaches every day this week too. 

if anyone else cares too 

[Snowie]

Hey @Bow 

Sorry about you day hon and that it was rough. If staying home was a better option than going to see your psych then that was what was needed. You know yourself well enough hon. You know what's best for you.

I am really hoping that your CM turns up tomorrow. I know how sporadic your supports have become. I also know how much you rely on them too. Sometimes just even the smallest thing can help a lot.

[Ru-bee]

Hey @Bow just wanted to stop by and say hello. I'm sorry to hear that you're having a rough day and couldn't make it to that appointment, and those frequent headaches sound pretty terrible. Hoping this eases for you soon 💜

[Bow]

Thanks @Snowie  hopefully they see it that way but I doubt they will. I just physically couldn’t get myself there it wasn’t safe. 

I told my SW and she asked if I felt I could tell my CM? I don’t know. I really don’t know. 

hi @Ru-bee  thats. How r u?

[Snowie]

It's hard knowing what to tell who @Bow 

To tell is putting a lot of trust into someone. To tell is opening ourselves up too. 

Sometimes it can help but other times in can hinder. It's a hard decision to make.

There are times where I've missed an appt. Home can be safe, bed can be safe

[Ru-bee]

I'm good @Bow been a bit tired this week, but today I was able to get a sleep in which was great

Hoping that your appointment with your CM goes okay tomorrow

[Bow]

Trust has to be earned though @Snowie and my CM ain’t there. And the longer things go on the further away from having my trust she gets. 

sleepins are nice @Ru-bee  i struggle to get up most mornings by 7:30 to get daughter up and ready for school. She woke me at 6:10 this morning saying she felt sick. Got her a bucket and stood over her for a bit and then she said I could go back to bed. 7:30 she was up eating breakfast. I didn’t get back to sleep. 

[Snowie]

I totally agree @Bow trust has to be earnt. It's not something that is just given out. 

They have to show us that they are worthy of our trust.

[Bow]

My CM turned up this morning. She actually called to confirm which she never does, probably cause I didn’t show up yesterday. 

My SW was supposed to come this morning too. We discussed weeks ago that she would just be here for like 10mins at the start to help push and raise her concerns about not having a replacement psychologist when my psych goes on mat leave and then she would leave. I didn’t hear from her this morning thought she just wasn’t gonna show up, I wouldn’t be surprised to be honest. My CM arrives and then another car pulls up. It was another SW. what the???? I had no idea what was going on. It felt awkward. My CM wasn’t really impressed.

Apparently my SW had to swap days, she’s working tomorrow and this other SW was here to support me. My SW was suppose to of told me 🤬

My CM said she would only stay briefly and she would call me tomorrow to talk more. she asked me all the usual questions but I wasn’t really honest at all. 

[Snowie]

Hi @Bow 

I'm glad your CM turned up this morning but doesn't sound like it was the best scenario, especially with a SW turning up that you didn't really know.

Must be hard when your CM says they aren't staying for long. Hard to be honest. If you were, would have they actually stuck around or just left anyway.

I hope the rest of your day went ok 💕