My Mosaic

[Ru-bee]

Hey @Bow here with you

What's going on for you right now?

[Bow]

In a panic, anxious about the plans I made to go away @Ru-bee  im in no real state to be away from home and responsible for someone else. So stupid. 
so punished myself. Stupid girl. Should know better 

[Ru-bee]

I'm hearing some real frustration with yourself at the moment @Bow 

Is there something that we can do to ease some of this panic? Can we try some grounding?

[Bow]

maybe @Ru-bee  dont know what though I’m trying to breath

[AuntGlow]

I am here for you too today @Bow 💛

Sometimes my mind can really take over as well... and it can feel so intense and hard to ignore the looping thoughts. I have noticed that familiar comforts can be very helpful when I feel this way. Does anything come to mind for you? 

[Bow]

No not really @AuntGlow  sometimes all I can do is curl up in a blanket and stay put. Just needing for my body to feel safe. Sometimes my mind is really not and doing my best to keep my body safe is all I can do 

sorry not sure if that makes much sense 

[AuntGlow]

I think that is perfect for how you're feeling to be honest - it's signalling to your nervous system and subconscious mind, 'Hey, I have got you, you're safe'. 

So yes, it does make sense. Could you do that now and let me know how you're feeling in 10/15 minutes? 💖 @Bow 

[Ru-bee]

Hey @Bow how are you feeling? Have you given yourself time to be safe and curled up in that blanket?

[Bow]

Kinda @Ru-bee  it’s hard when family doesn’t understand. Had to get up for dinner and the agitation rose so quickly and sent me into a spiral again. It’s so hard to hide things when I’m feeling it so much physically

[Ru-bee]

Having to mask those feelings would be really difficult @Bow Are you able to retreat after dinner and have some time to yourself to do what you need to self soothe, maybe wrapping yourself in the blanket again?