My Mosaic

[Bow]

Hey @rav3n  

see previous post as to how I am. Plus I think I slept wrong last night cause my neck/shoulder is really stiff and stuck. I’m a bit tired too. 

how r u?

arts and craft was ok yesterday. Bit noisy and overstimulating as always. I sat and did my own thing though as I didn’t want to waste beads cause I have no real need/desire for beaded jewelry. I made some cards. 

 the stack of books and flowers are all seperate and individually cut out. I stick the flower onto florists wire. 

[Bow]

@AuntGlow  I actually or we… my psychologist and I just spent a bit of time talking about connections in my session just now. We talked about the difference between my old SW and my current one and it’s a lot about how we connect. 

I think we will talk a bit about it and work on that between now and when she goes on mat leave in September.

but yes maybe I can try and get myself to chat and chill. They do play board games and stuff which I ain’t keen on but I can still sit and watch and chat. 

how r u feeling today?

[Ru-bee]

Hey @Bow First off I'm so proud of you for being so open with not only your SW but your psychologist too. That takes a lot of courage and I know it wouldn't have been easy. That was a big morning so I'm glad your kitty is there with you on the couch to offer some snuggles and comfort.

It sounds as though opening up about what's been going on has been almost a bit...anticlimactic? For lack of a better word, or maybe disappointing in the response? With you SW not having responded yet and your psychologist's response lacking the level of care that you're needing. Is this how it's feeling for you or are there some other feelings coming up?

[rav3n]

i'm really glad you shared more about how you were feeling with SW and psych @Bow, really proud of you for doing that. i hope she responds soon and provides you with more support.  

i absolutely love those cards - honestly, it looks like one of those fancy cards you buy from gift stores! i definitely would not have thought you cut out those flowers and books separately, they really do fit together seamlessly.

i'm doing alright, been dealing with cramps and feeling a lil sick but i'm keeping warm and taking things slow. i hope that the neck and shoulder stiffness eases and that you get a bit more energy back throughout the day. 💗

[Bow]

Yes @Ru-bee  heaps anticlimactic. From both for sure. The level of distress that I have been feeling I guess doesn’t match the level of concern or care. But that’s just me. Maybe I am overreacting? Maybe I’m just not as sick or unwell as I think I am? Maybe they just have more important and needier folks to care for? Or just fed up with me?

still nothing from my SW. 

but thank you for caring. 

[Bow]

Thanks @rav3n 🙏 

hope your feeling a bit better soon too! 

im gonna go get some crafts to do on the couch. Need to keep busy

[Ru-bee]

Of course, I'm always gonna care @Bow and I think those feelings and questions are really valid, it's fair enough to question what's going on when the reaction feels so off what we thought it might be or what we feel it should be. I'm wondering what their thinking is too, but I'm hoping that you will hear back from your SW soon and will receive some of that care that you're needing from them.

What crafts have you got going from the couch this afternoon?

[AuntGlow]

Definitely. Clicking with someone or feeling safe with them can really shift how supported you feel. In what ways do you connect/not connect with your current support worker? @Bow 

Your psychologist sounds like she is really trying to understand what you're needing, I hope she can help support you with more care when she leaves in a way that feels comforting for you.

haha that is fair. Though, if you had to play one board game, what one would it be? 🤔

Let me know how it goes if you do decide to pop along! It can be fun going into new situations being curious about what you'll learn about yourself and others. 

I am feeling a little better today actually, some time sitting out in the sun has helped. 🌞

Thank you for asking! 

[Bow]

Still nothing from my SW @Ru-bee  and she finishes at 4pm.

im starting a book sculpture. Just a lot of counting ages and folding to start with. It’s a lengthy process 

[Bow]

Am I allowed to feel disappointed???? 😔