My Mosaic

[Bow]

@Jynx  I just stayed home today. I had a bad night with nightmares and this weird pain that I have. I’m a side sleeper but that was extremely painful, so had to sleep on my back and it felt very uncomfortable. Every time I woke up, especially from a nightmare I needed comfort… needed to be comfortable. Being on my back felt exposed. It was not a good night. 

I’ve had to work had at keeping myself busy today. Desperate to be back in bed. Spent the day downstairs in the cave. Found myself dissociating a lot don’t know why and felt frustrated by it. 

managed to get a couple of art pieces done. Christmas stuff. Disappointed in myself. Have fluffed around too much and wasted so much time doing nothing. 

how was your day?

[Jynx]

@Bow oh that sucks hun. I hate when the aches and pains make it impossible to sleep - I'm a side-sleeper and boy do my hips hate that fact! 

I think being tired makes my brain more likely to wanna dissociate. Or it's like, I find it harder to stay connected cos I'm so tired. So that might be a big factor. Still frustrating though for sure! I think the way it makes time seem to 'jump' makes it tricky too, like 'hang on I thought I had hours to do this task... when did the sun go down?' 😅

The fact you still accomplished something is commendable in my opinion - kinda hard to stay focused when one's mind keeps going 'offline'. And you weren't doing nothing hun, you were surviving. 

Day has been ok, I too did not sleep well, but somehow managed to do the vacuuming! Well, most of the vacuuming haha. 

What crafty Christmas things did you make today?

[Bow]

I’m still in pain tonight but thankfully not as much @Jynx  so hoping for a better nights sleep. And yep my hips hate me too. 

true yeah, being tired made today worse. And I thought I had like all day. All day. But so much of it went missing. That’s what is frustrating. I like it when I can manage a full day at home (apart from school runs) and to feel like chunks of it were robbed from me sucks. Like when my medication alarm goes off at midday?? What???  I got things to do!

is surviving really that big of a deal? It feel like just a given now. What I gotta do. It’s freaking exhausting but it’s normal?

I did a tiny bit of vacuuming today too! I sanded back the holes I made trying to put curtain rods up. We had an air tasker guy come by tonight to do it cause I failed at it. 

Some of my pieces from today;

this tends to be popular

 made these with sea glass. So cute

 this has 4 cards with different quotes that spoke to me today feeling the way that I am. Haven’t made this before but gonna make some more.

 these calendars drove me crazy making the calendar part exactly the same size. Think I’ve got them as close as I’m gonna get them today. Now I just gotta go buy some more card stock 

 

[Bow]

Think ya mighta forgot about me @Jynx  but that’s ok I’m gonna go crawl into bed. Have a good week

[Jynx]

@Bow I definitely didn't forget about you (impossible!) I just only have so many fingers and so many minutes in a shift...

Goodnight, catch you next time when I can reply properly 💜

[Bow]

I’m so tired today. Frustrating when I seemed to sleep semi ok.

[Snowie]

Hi @Bow 

Here if you need

[Bow]

Hi @Snowie  how are you?

[Snowie]

Sh*t day @Bow 

How are you? Need to talk?

[Bow]

About the same @Snowie  sh!t day here

i wanna go crawl into bed and disappear I’m tired

safe by the way