Tough Times

[Former-Member]

Monster has done its damage and left the pain in its wake. She couldn't treat my PTSD yesterday because I have had to many attempts to leave the world in the last week and she didn't want to push me over the edge. Instead she decided to focus on my as called marriage, she told me things that he had told her in the beginning of my treatment with her, because I was in the room at the time even though I would sit there and couldn't  hear them or speak she said it didn't volatile client confidentiality. It's nothing I didn't know already but at the end of the day I was having to hear the truths just. Argh so much I can't say here. @Lee82 

[Former-Member]

Told Nat that if her or the gp tried sending me to hospital I would run. She said she new that and that is why she hasn't pushed it. @Lee82 

[Lee82]

Oh babe I am so sorry. Do you need medical attention babe? 
I am so sorry to bring this up again but I really do think you need to go into hospital. Did she mention it at all? 
what did Nat day today? 
I feel so bloody helpless I don't know what I can do for you babe. What can I say to help? What can I do? 
I feel like there needs to be more medical care for you honey. I feel like I am not enough. I am not helping. I am useless. 
why isn't your medical team doing more to help you? 
I'm sorry I don't want to add to your stress I'm just angry and upset. 
not angry at you babe please believe that just angry that I am so far away and upset because I feel like not enough is being done for you. 
these are my feelings babe and they are there not for you to feel bad about please know they are there because I care so much. 
@Former-Member 

[Former-Member]

I am going to have him come and stay again god knows if he will say yes but Nat is talking ti him now. Yes she mentioned hospital today. You do enough by being here for me when I need as do the other members that support us both. Please calm down as I know it doesn't help you at all. I promise to put myself first and do the best I can to stay away from the darkness if you promise me that you will calm yourself for me. @Lee82 

@outlander @Sans911 @Zoe7 @Former-Member @Former-Member   I am struggling a far bit this afternoon sorry for tagging you guys in my mess. 😞

[Lee82]

Do you think you need medical attention? Are you ok babe?

@Former-Member 

 Ok will do my best babe. I'm sorry 

[Lee82]

Please let me know what happens with him babe. 
Love you to infinity and beyond 💗

@Former-Member 

[Former-Member]

@Lee82 , your passion for those you care about is beautiful and I am truly blessed to have you as my friend. No medical attention needed and I will let you know when I know my love. I promise 💜

@Joely , how are you doing this afternoon 

@Former-Member I hope things went well with you psychiatrist today. Hope you are doing ok. 

@Former-Member , 💜thank you💜

[Lee82]

Thanks @Former-Member I'm sorry about before. I shouldn't have said anything. Thank you for keeping me updated. Love ya babes 

[Zoe7]

Hey @Former-Member @Lee82 Another really tough day for you both - hearng you and sitting with you 

[Former-Member]

🤨Lee🤨, you are not aloud to apologise for caring and expressing it. I just worry that my stuff is too much sometimes and I hate that it upsets you. I will back a little later have to eat 🤮 love you 3000 (it would be more if you stopped stressing 😂) just kidding my love. @Lee82