not coping

[Snowie]

That is a lot of animals @outlander 

I have had dogs, birds, turtles, horse. I think that is it.

How has your day been hun?

[outlander]

ive been really struggling to keep safe today (to the point I didn't care what happened anymore) @Snowie the past few days have been hard, today has been average except the usual with my mother but its all adding up plus another anniversary in 3 days.

hows yours been?


@Former-Member @Sans911 @eth @Bunniekins how are you guys going?

[Sans911]

Oh my sweet lil Sis @outlander 

Is there anything I or we can do to help? Is talking about things other than how you feel helpful?

[outlander]

I don't really know @Sans911
I tried to continue doing some of my studies but every thought was something suicidal or the urge to sh so strong that I couldn't or think about anything else. the assignment also seems to hard but I know its not, ive studied this before and its not something extremely hard that I need to do but in my mind it just seems to overwhelming so its probably not helping the thoughts either. what happened yesterday is still playing on my mind with a few people but have been trying to push it aside.
sorry for the ramble.

how are you going? is today any better?

[Bunniekins]

@outlander  Hey outlander sorry to hear things aren't going great for you atm :(.  Will be sending you kindness and caring hunnyxxx. I have had a good weekend son2 went to his fathers so I had the place to myself. I have been sitting at the computer playing my fav music, watching tv and doing some gardening :D:D. We had a family thai tonight which was really nice. 

I hope you are feeling better soonxxxx

[Former-Member]

@outlander Just checking in as it sounds like it's been a really tough day and I was concerned to hear you've been feeling like it was hard keeping yourself safe today.

I'm glad you're here and you're being open and that you're reaching out and that you're being supported by others.

I trust that you have the capacity to keep yourself safe but just a gentle reminder to reach out to support services as you need to. It's a tough time right now.

Lifeline: 13 11 14

Suicide Call Back Service  1300 659 467

[outlander]

Hi @Former-Member
im safe enough atm thank you

[Snowie]

Hi @outlander 

Sorry it has been a hard day for you. Seems a lot of things are building up, especially with another anniversary coming up.

Lots of love and hugs to you too. Sitting with both you and @Sans911 

My day has been, well um hard, crap & suffocating all mixed into one.

[outlander]

that's good to hear @Bunniekins sounds like a well spent rest while you were able to!
hope S2 will behave himself when hes back at home again.

[Sans911]

Would breaking the assigment up into little chunks and tackling it a bit at a time with me help?? 

I am with you here to help you feel/stay safe. You know it's ok to feel not ok. And there are a lot of things happening for you all at once. Which is why you are feeling overwhelmed. With very little or unhelpful support in our real life. 

Lets just tak this afternoon and evening moment by moment ok? What might help to keep you safe at this moment? Just being here? Or something else.I haven't asked you in a long time have you used your worry box?