not coping

[Snowie]

Good morning hon @outlander 

Hoping today is a little better for you sis.

Sitting with you

LOts of love and hugs 💛💜💛💜

[outlander]

Hoping you both got some sleep @Emelia8 @Anastasia 💕

@Sans911 @Snowie @Eve7 @Shaz51 @Appleblossom 💜

[Sans911]

Hey lil Sis @outlander. Are you feeling any better? ❤️❤️

[outlander]

Abit of an update:

Im on break now with pop gone to his brothers for a few days. So have some time and space to myself


Have been to the drs, and theyve said if meds dont work in the next 2 days (today and by tomorrow night) i need to go to hospital. Temps are still up around 38 and not feeling overly great as expected. Feels like im forever taking meds since one has to be taken 2 hrs before food and one with food so its like a never ending cycle plus my regular meds as well. Im feel quite worn out, spacey and abit dizzy too like i cant concentrate. One med gives me headaches too.
A few days break will be a few days recovery by thr sounds of it

The letter i received was from someone in the family but i dont want to say who but it contained things like how much ive ruined their life, why couldnt i leave things alone, its my fault. Saying things like if it keeps going or if i do what i had planned for respite im going to be left without everything-home money job , everything. Saying things like im not true family and i should stop being so selfish. Thats basically the whole lines of this 2 page double sided letter. It seems to have been written in anger but it doesnt change the content. It has me angry, very upset, and other things.
I feel very alone and worthless and its exacerbated the way i already felt about myself and my moods etc. I havent shared this letter with anyone, im not sure i will tbh. I dont know what ill do atm.

@Sans911 @Snowie @Emelia8 @Anastasia @Eve7  and everyone following alonh too 

[Snowie]

@outlander oh I wish I could confront this person and tell them that they are so wrong.

You are a gorgeous, caring, wonderful person that is doing the very best they can. Please know that.

I am glad you have a few days to yourself, hoping it can help you hon.

Am around for awhile so will come and sit with you sweetie.

Please know how much we love you and care for you here 💜💜

[outlander]

@Clawde 💕
Thank you for your support too, it never goes unnoticed

[outlander]

@Snowie 🌷

Its also a big anniversary tomorrow which isnt helping because it s bringing up the my fault ans shouldve done more to protect and all the rest.

[Snowie]

Thats not good @outlander 

Anniversaries are hard to get through and with what you are going through it probably makes things worse.

I don't know what happened hun but it isn't your fault. It sounds like this person is just trying to blame someone and you are in the firing line.

Have you got anything planned for tomorrow to help you get through it or are you just planning a day at home?

[outlander]

The anniversary is dog incident @Snowie the lettet has come about because of a restricted license and an acat assessment for respite which wont be happening now except this one or unless i go to a hotel and get someone to stay here.

Ill be at home, i dont think 38 temps are people who should be running around atm. I might do a load or 2 of washing though cause im kinds running out of clothes ans maybe the dishes but that's prob it till school pickup when ill have kids till midnight but not till from 4 oclock but depends what dr says cause if im not gettiny any better basically overnight i have to be admitted to hospital

[Clawde]

Thankyou so much your support means and has so much meant to me more than I could ever tell you I am humbled by this message from you . You have made such a difference to me today Thankyou @outlander  from the bottom of my heart Love from @Snowie @Emelia8 @Anastasia @Emelia8 @outlander @Snowie and all my friends on this just ran out of how to include you guys but you know who you are because you are in this group that I cherish in my heart Thankyou so much again and again for your help when I was #### with that family crap when I was lost and honestly did not know hat to to do , thanks for your advise s it was the best and e the advice it did not cost me time or money, just love this web forum thing but mostly I love I trust and truly love the support and the real time advice that works there is nothing like this stuffs in the world I am blessed not that I am religious that I found you amazing peoples Thankyou all so much 🏆🏆🏆🏆🏆🏆🏆🏆🏆🏆🏆🏆🏆🏆🏆