not coping

[outlander]

Im sorry @Snowie i really wish life was much better for you. Has something triggered you or is your brain just deciding to make life more difficult then it needs to today?

[Snowie]

Just a lot of different things happening at the moment @outlander which I am trying to deal with, but not doing a very good job. I just get tired trying to put on my brave face all of the time, especially in front of the kids.

Sometimes enough is just enough.

[outlander]

It is hard @Snowie i worry abiut whatll happen if i let that 'im fine'act disappear sometimes
Do you want to talk about some of the things happening?
Would having a session with your psychologist be any help-i know getting an appt can be abit of wait though

[Snowie]

I have an appointment with her next week @outlander 

I am scared to talk, to take the lid of the box.

I just need to last till then

[outlander]

My ears are always listening in case tou change your mind but i totally get not wanting to lift the lid as well
Can you do something tonight that might help even for a little bit?

[Snowie]

I think I might just try and go to bed @outlander 

No point staying awake, the demons don't stop.

Nothing stops, it is just all pain.

[outlander]

Lots of love ans hugs @Snowie if it helps you can come sit with me and share a cuppa

[Snowie]

Thanks @outlander for your support.

I feel like I shouldn't be on here like this. Even on here I should put on a brave face. That I should be stronger then this.

Sorry, just blabbering, I have had enough of myself.

[TideisTurning]

Hey @Snowie, I'm so sorry to hear the road's a little rough for you right now. I just wanted to pop on and say that it's ok to struggle. You don't have to be strong all the time. I've felt the same myself at times, and that extra pressure is so hard. Though another thing I've come to learn is that seeing someone else in struggle and continuing on, not necessarily being strong, but just keeping going, has really helped reassure me that I'm not alone. 

Having said that, if you feel like it might be helpful for you to take a little break and time away for yourself, I'd really encourage you to do that. Wishing you the strength and courage to do what's right for you, whatever that might be. 🌸

[outlander]

You are noat deserving and welcome to be here @Snowie and im happy to support you as are others too. Your stronger then you know, asking for support is a strength even if it doesnt feel like it.
I understand feeling like had enough of self, i feel like that too.