Hi @Hibiscus1 @Topsy-turvy1 ,
I hear you both. I’ve been banned from places in the past because of my BPD rage.
Sad as it is, but I was always kept in the Acute care unit as an inpatient because I was so high risk.
SH was my way of coping. To people around, SH was a way of telling them I needed help. Yet I was too afraid to receive help. In my early 20s, I now know I was y ready to be helped. I think I wasn’t sick enough of being sick - yet.
But a decade later, things came to a head. It was do or die. I’d either throw myself into therapy or through myself into death.
As a last resort, I myself reached out. I’m the past everyone else reached out for me. But this time, I did it. And this was the beginning of my recovery.
Its been a long road, but totally worth it. However, it was a road I needed to travel myself. I had to take charge of my own recovery, and not anyone else. I had to be ready. So in my 30s, by recovery started.
All the best.
