Awoken to a dark, soft overcast day. It's been raining fairly steadily all night. Cool air coming through screen door while I sit rugged up in my giant fluffy dressing gown. Days like this feel relieving and relaxing.
Nothing pressing me today. It would be wonderful if I redyed my hair (long overdue), and subsequently had a shower. We'll see if that happens or if I just sleep more and generally relax. I feel the latest med I've changed to (an anti-psychotic), is paradoxically giving rise to more general anxiety in me. It's either a side effect of the new med, or the old med was holding my anxiety at bay more effectively. I can probably live with it. Again, we'll see. I've only been on it about four weeks so far.
Dreams were strange. I dreamt of my very first psychiatrist. He was an ambivalent figure in the dream. It was like the end of the world in my dream and we were all trying to pick up fragmented pieces of whatever was left of the material world and ourselves, to survive. Still feel weird from that dream.
The spasmodic pain in my left temple continues to increase in frequency, not great. Neurologist appointment is only a week away. I hope this potentially very painful head condition (which could be trigeminal neuralgia), stays at bay long enough to see the neurologist, before it gets too bad to bear. I've been in the 'too bad to bear' pain with this condition before and it lasted way too long (at least a month), and a number of emergency visits, before I got an accurate diagnosis and treatment. Glad I've got a quiet day because it seems to respond to stress levels. Everyday life out in the world for me tends to generate higher levels of anxiety. I am usually calmer at home.
Enough of how I am today. Hope the day treats everyone well. ox
