The Challenges of Mental Health Wellbeing

[Former-Member]

@Sans911  I am really sorry that your appointments did not go as well as they could have done.  I hope the new cream speeds up the healing process though ... that would be one big step in the right direction at least.  It is unfortunate that your plastic surgeon told you that a 6 month delay prior to your surgery would have been better.  Its irrelevant now ... its done and no going back. Not sure what she was thinking in making that statement.  Nothing whatever to be gained in her telling you that.  

Regarding your feelings of abandonment and betrayal of trust ... is that with your psychologist?  I think thats what you're saying.  I am going through that exact process right now with mine. An appointment with her today to try to work through a few issues.

Okay so yesterday was a 'why bother' kind of day ... really hoping that today feels just a little more positive.  Just really sorry life was not fairer and simpler and had less suffering in it.

Sherry 💕

[Sans911]

Thanks @Snowie. I've had a rough night's sleep, partly due to yesterday and partly due to it being very warm overnight.

I'm not much better this morning. There's tears but mainly because others like you are so kind. My pyschologist was horrified what my surgeon said to me, that I should put in a complaint. I can't be bothered because she was having a bad day, I was having a bad day and nothing changes regardless. I don't see her as a bad or unprofessional surgeon, she just aired her frustrations. At my next appointment with her I just won't say a thing.

How are you doing yourself @Snowie? I understand being away probably doesn't mean everything is fine. I read you were really struggling with some issues yesterday or the day before. And I know it's difficult to talk here too. I just want you to know that I keep up with what's happening for you even if I don't say anything at the time. I worry about you a lot. Your precious to me, and if I help to keep you going (though right now I'm not sure how) that pleases me.

[Sans911]

Morning @Former-Member. Yes, the feelings of abandonment & betrayal of trust are from a misunderstanding with my pyschologist. Resolving them is proving difficult.

I'm a little aware of a similar situation with you. I've tried to follow some of your posts when I can. I care very much about what is happening in your life Sherry. You're an amazing resilient person who is so kind and caring to others, but I understand there has been a lot of hurt in your life.

Thank you for caring about me.

[outlander]

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[Sans911]

Morning lil Sis @outlander 💜 💜 💜 💜 💜

[Snowie]

You are up very early @Sans911 I hope you can get some more sleep. 

I am glad you psychologist was concerned about what the specialist said too. I am glad she backed you on this occasion. 

Cry away hun if it helps. Sometimes releasing those emotions help, sometimes not.

You show so much strength, compassion, determination, sincerity and honesty my sweet Sans. You keep me going at times by just being you.

H had a meltdown last night which affected me a lot. I can understand where he is coming from, but don't know how to fix it.

There is a lot I need to say but cannot say it.

Just one step in front of the other for us both.

@outlanderI hope you have an ok day today.

It is already hot here with lots of smoke around. Have got a few things I need to get done today.

Much love to you both. Will try and come back on after I have done everything I need too.

[Sans911]

Mr A (my cat) has been using me as a human trampoline! I slept on a mattress out in the living room floor and opposite the sliding door until just after 3am because it was a humid night. Then I went back to my bed for a bit until he slapped my face after 4am. I'll go back to sleep for another hour or so until I need to get up and ready for my course.

While tears come easily enough they are short lived, and go as quickly as they arrive. A good cry would be great but it's something that's very difficult for me to do.

That's hard with H. I have no words but I'm hearing you. It's hard enough dealing with your own emotions let alone others. It must be really difficult for him sometimes to be helpful and understand.

Yes, one step in front of the other. That's sometimes all I can do (that and breathing). I hope you get everything done that you need to

@outlander - you've been very quiet for a few days lil Sis. I'm a bit concerned. I'll try to catch up with later today.

[outlander]

@Sans911 @Snowie 💕💜💕💜

[Sans911]

Hi lil Sis @outlander 💜 💜

Are you ok? Or just busy? I've been at a course all day, and I'm back tommorow as well. Plus I helped the same friend who's car I sold look for a car tonight. I'm exhausted!

[outlander]

Hi sis 💜💜
Youve been very busy the past week so im not surprised your exhausted @Sans911
What course are you doing? Is this part of the mh one you were/are (?) Studying or a different course?

Im busy but not as busy as before since most of the horse owners are back now.
Im really not in a good headspace, right back in the danger zone and being in alot of pain (seems another cyst rupture) isnt helping much either.