Just want to get this all out from within me
I shouting out why don't you love me. What is so wrong with me. Don't you see me, aching for you to notice me. Don't you see me aching to be be held. It hurts. Just want the pain to go away. But you never saw me, I don't remember being held. I don't remember you playing tea parties with me, reading to me, playing lego with me, talking to me, hanging out with me, asking about school work. I remember you doing my hair in pony tails, teaching me to ride a bike, then teaching me to drive.
You didn't know I was frightened and made a safe spot under the cover on my bed. Frightened off the rats that I heard running around on my bedroom ceiling and in the walls.
You did not know how so very sad I felt, stepping on my younger sisters kitten and hurting it. You put a pillow case over it, so it would not suffer. My heart was so very sad that I accidentally killed this cute little kitten. I had to still go to school, feeling so very sad. No one held me. No one said it was okay. My younger sister had the day off school and was given a new cat. I was happy for her, that she had it. But sad that I hurt this other little one.
I know you did not know my heart, I know you did you best. But it hurts.
