Hi @Jynx @Snowie 👋
im just home from my schema group. Laying on the couch. I’m so tired.
Sat down at the beginning of group and the facilitator made the comment that I didn’t look ok today. Been a rough couple of days… more tired than usual. Feeling physical stuff. After our usual check in, we did reimagery. There was only the 2 of us there, but when it got to my turn I said I don’t think I had the capacity to participate in that today. Not only thinking about how I was feeling there in the moment, but also recovery afterwards. They were absolutely fine with that and appreciated that I was able to verbalize what I needed.
We did do a little bit of chair work though, which I was ok with. The over controller has been pretty loud and in control.., as has the inner critic. Pushing me to push myself despite feeling so exhausted. Going to aim to at least take notice of what little bow needs in those moments. Take notice when she needs rest. Maybe even stop when I get to that point. That’s the plan anyways.
My SW was suppose to do a home visit early this morning. I was waiting around for her. But when one of the other SW calls I immediately knew she was away today. That’s the only reason someone else calls. But she ain’t only away today, but all week 😩 covid I can assume, cause I was told to monitor for systems. (Actually did a test, thought maybe that’s why I’ve been so tired? But it was negative). Most shittyest time for her to be away with mum being away too. There is only 2 SW on this week now with 2 of them being away. So I’ll get very minimum support, probably just phone calls and group will probably be cancelled. I had bloods with my SW on Wednesday and then gp on Thursday.
dietitian appointment tomorrow. That should be interesting.
