I swear sometimes at the best of times, @Bunniekins. I don't think there was much difference when I was (maybe) psychotic. No medical practitioner has ever told me I was psychotic, though having the Bipolar 1 diagnosis, I suppose I probably was at different times. Certainly, the anti-psychotic medication changed my life a lot.

At some stages, I did get very angry at people close to me, involving a lot of verbal abuse (without fully realising what I was doing). Inside my head and emotions at those times, I was chaotic, with dark and twisted perceptions, switching quickly in mood and found it impossible to control expressing that. It's shameful to me now because I hurt those I loved a lot.

At another extended time of mania, I thought I was some kind of love goddess. My sexual adventures were rampant, extreme and very risky. Then, I was putting myself in danger more than anyone else, I think.

Big question for early in the morning!