I guess I’m a little better than I used to be @outlander but I used to act on all those urges when there was a loss or even if I became fearful of losing someone. It became a self fulfilling prophecy for me. I would fear abandonment so much that I’d spend all my time freaking out about it that I acted crazy and then pushed that person away with my crazy behaviour. I’m not sure if this helps.
I really wish things were different @Teej they need to find a cure for mh or find things that work more. I took another loss tonight. It gets hard doesnt it. It never seems to end.
