Just checking in.

[Teej]

@Faith-and-Hope, @CheerBear 

i has a v long response typed out this morning but I couldn’t press send, then second guessed myself then, then, then......I was in my head not knowing what was right or real and so I chickened out, it was just chatty and nothing heavy but I made it so much messier than it should have been. My mood is ok, just brain in overdrive :face_with_rolling_eyes:

thinking of you @CheerBear and hope special person is doing ok. 🙏🤞🏻

[Faith-and-Hope]

Hi @Sans911.... 🤗👋💕

[Teej]

@CheerBear I know you are in the grip of lots of very difficult things. I’m thinking of you and hope that things are ok with special person and you with big scary weekends and weeks. 

I found this. You may not be in the headspace to read this now but I thought it was interesting. 

It’s a short essay on hope. 

https://www.nationalgeographic.com/magazine/2018/10/embark-essay-anne-lamott-hope-adversity-conflict...

This is one of my fave quotes and pictures. My therapist sent it to me years agoStill my fave Brené quote.Some strength. You can grow and continue to bloom from this really hard rocky place.Something to help shelter you from the rain

[CheerBear]

Very, very big thank you @Teej. This was the loveliest surprise when I logged on and my heart really needed that today. Thank you ❤💜💚

[CheerBear]

I'm feeling all kinds of jumbled today. I know I'm in now but so much of me is stuck in then. If I could go back to then I'd tell myself to soak up all we have because tomorrow it goes bang and from then none of it would look or feel or be the same again. I'd stop and take a moment to look at our home and what we'd made in and of it. I'd go and visit friends one last time and tell them how much I valued them and appreciated our friendship. I'd say a proper goodbye to the place we called home where we were part of a community and had a pretty great life.

I feel really sad. It's like a nagging feeling inside that's asking me to listen to it but there doesn't seem to be time or space to stop and be with that at all right now. There's a house full of busy people with busy things going on all which are also asking for my attention in some way or another. I know I could really use some stop time today but I can't seem to get it.

[Pepsimax]

@CheerBear sounds like you are missing parts of your life you had sounds like you could have said goodbye to some people but weren't able to I get missing people but in a different way are the kids on holiday thinking of you🌻🌼🍄😍

[Shaz51]

@CheerBear

[Zoe7]

@CheerBear @Teej I have been thinking of those missing or absent from here today with some sadness but I have also been thinking of you both today and how much support you have both given me over my journey here and just wanted you to know how much I appreciate you both. Life isn't always fair or just but it is people like you that make it easier to get through each day. I know there are people that are no longer here with us that I do miss terribly and that is why I wanted to recognise those people that do mean a lot to me - and you both definitely mean a lot to me. I know we don't often connect here much these days but that does not change my feelings for you both. ...and no matter what you feel - you are both very special people 

[Faith-and-Hope]

Lots n lots of hugs @CheerBear .... ❤️🌈 .... I know some of those feelings, but not in the same way.  Holding you up in thought and heart ......

[Teej]

Hey @CheerBear. I think it would be hard for most people to fathom being in one life one day and the next being ripped from it. Mine was not the same as yours in that it wasn’t forced upon me....well it kind of was but in a very different way. 

Thinkng of you and and hope you get time to be in your nest very soon where you can just be and grieve and replenish a little. At some point after you’ve looked back it’s good to look forward too. All of us that have gone through something life changing will never be the same again but maybe we can still be better versions of ourselves. 

I know things must be so tough just now with everything happening in your life just now. I’d be a complete zombie. My kids would be calling me by my first name because I wouldn’t hear them say mum :face_with_rolling_eyes: (I have one who still does 😳). 

Just wondering if there was a way for a visitor to mind the kids while you g and sit on a hill and look at city lights or some variation and just be with your thoughts for a bit. (Fix it brain suggestion) 

💜🤗