@outlander
You are one of the most selfless young persons I've ever known. Everything you do is for others, almost every thought and so many of your conversations are about others.
I'm not surprised you hardly know what you need, because everyone else demands that you take care of their needs first. They are the ones being selfish. Where do you fit in the picture of having a life for you? Most young people your age are exploring their first careers, exploring opportunities for travel, friends, finding yourself. You have none of these things because you're too busy being a slave to everyone's demands. You are paying the ultimate sacrifice right now. And it's no surprise you're battling anxiety, depression, insomnia, and all those things. And the very people who should love you unconditionally, support and guide you, are so absorbed in their own lives, they can't see how much burden their beautiful, intelligent, loving and caring daughter is carrying and how desperate she needs help.
I'm glad you are studying, because when you are out of this situation, and creating a life for you, those skills will be an asset to help you find work. You will be amazing in whatever role you undertake as you have such a beautiful personality. And studying right is giving you you time. Time for you to do something you are good at, and that you enjoy. So don't you stop doing that.
Hugs lil Sis. Neither you or I can fix the situation you're in right now. But I relish the day not too soon in the future when you tell me you longer need my help, and that life for you is good. Until then my suppois always here. Always
